Joss says it best....

Every single night, the same arrangment

I go out and fight the fight

Still I always feel this strange estrangement,

Nothing here is real, nothing here is right.

I've been making shows of trading blows

Just hoping no one knows

That I've been going through the motions,

Walking through the part,

Nothing seems to penetrate my - Heart.

I was always brave and kind of righteous,

Now I find I'm wavering.

Crawl out of your grave, you find this fight

Just doesn't mean a thing

(She ain't got that swing.)

Thanks for noticing

(She does pretty well with fiends from Hell

But lately we can tell

That she's just going through the motions

Faking it somehow.)

(She's not even half the girl she... owww!)

Will I stay this way forever?

Sleepwalk through my life's endeavor?

(How can I repay -) Whatever!

I don't want to be

Going through the motions,

Losing all my drive.

I can't even see

If this is really me

And I just want to be -

Alive!

This is how I have been feeling lately. I'm hoping it will end soon. I just love the words of Joss Whedon and really connect with them.

200 posts and I'm complete!!

This is my 200th post!!!

Wow! I can't believe it and I haven't even been blogging for 2 years yet!

Anyway, I finally got the last of my Indiana Jones Adventure Heroes from The Last Crusade movie on Tuesday!!! I debated whether or not to open them, and knew that I needed to.

So here we have:

Col. Vogel & Grail Knight Indiana Jones & Elsa Schneider

Indiana Jones & Henry Jones Sr.
Now I'm complete and no longer have to worry about trying to find them. I think this all stemmed from wanting a little Harrison Ford. I have a Han Solo key chain and was quite content with that. But when I saw the Indy Heroes I just had to have them!

On a more personal note, Pat taught his first lesson yesterday and it went great!! He is teaching a World Civilizations & Geography class 5 different times (A1, B1, B2, B3, & B4). He likes it because he only has to prepare a lesson for every other day. We are nearing the end of week 2 of the student teaching and still surviving! I just need to work on my patience with the kids and give myself some time outs when needed.

I'm also wanting to finish some projects during this time, like working on my scrapbook! I am so far behind and I know if I just devote a few weeks and can get caught up. I have also been working on a project with my grandma's pictures. Her film camera recently died and we gave her Karri's old Digital Camera as a replacement. I don't know if she really likes it yet, because she still passes off the camera for us to take pictures for her. With all this change, I decided to get her pictures from her and organize them a bit in order of years and into nice photo boxes (this is more for me I guess, then for her). I am also collecting all of her negatives and am going to get them put on CD's. So far I think I have everything from 2000 until now. And I found a whole bunch of negatives from the 90's too. But the best find so far was a whole role of negatives from December of 1980. They are, I think professional, family pictures of the whole Ramey Clan (minus me, I was in utero). It was so crazy to find them and I'm excited to get them scanned. I have also found some old slides too! I can't wait until I'm all done, it will be great to have them all digital. I'm sure there are a bunch more pictures stowed away somewhere in her house, but this is a great start. She also used to have a Polaroid camera when I was a baby, so I know there are a ton of those to find and scan too! Wish me luck!!

Ever since I signed up for Bloggled, I have looked at my blog in a different way. This is really my journal, and I'm glad that I'm able to express myself here. So I will probably be writing things down more for my purposes, then for the purpose of sharing, so you are welcome to skim over the text if I'm boring you! :)

A First for Xander & Mara

Last night Xander had his first sleep over!!!

He slept over at Max's house and was so excited for it! Since there was no school today and Brent & Lisa were over last night, they just took him home with them! I haven't heard yet how it went, but I'm sure he had a great time. Meanwhile back at home Mara didn't have the best night. Usually when we put the kids to bed Mara will stay in her bed and go to sleep really well. But last night within a few minutes of closing her door she was up! First she said she needed to go potty, which she tried, but nothing happened. So we got her back in bed, then another few minutes went by and she was up again. When I put her back to bed she said "I want Xander to get in bed!" "He need come home and get in bed". I didn't think that him being gone would bother her so much. We were able to put her in bed again, and we started watching some TV from this past week on our DVR. Sure enough within 5 minutes she was up AGAIN!!! We let her sit with us for a bit, then decided to let her sleep in Xander's bed. She was happy about that and went down pretty good. She did get up in the middle of the night, saying she was scared, but after a few minutes in bed with us she started to fall asleep, so I put her back in bed. She was good and slept until 8 or so.

This was just an interesting experience for me. I didn't think that she would have acted like this, but it makes sense. Xander & Mara have been sharing a room since Mara was 3 or 4 months old, so it's very much a comfort thing for Mara to have Xander there with her. No wonder she's been so great in her toddler bed. I just hope that all went well with the sleep over and I look forward to stories and pictures :)

On anther note: My sister Karri gave Mara a Princess calendar last night and it had paper dolls with vinyl accessories. She and Conli were playing with them alot last night. Mara got them out this morning and decided that she wanted to put on a puppet show for me. So she got a chair behind the couch and told me to sit down and watch. She was being so cute!! I took 2 videos and was able to post 1. The second one is my favorite, but it was too big for blogger :(

It's just amazing the imagination of a 2 year old! ENJOY!

I just love how she says "Go to the Ball"

While Daddy's Away....

Last Saturday we enjoyed a little time with Pat before work and played Rock Band. (This is truly a new obsession of ours) Mara decided that she wanted to play the drums too, so she pulled all the stools out from under the counter and got a couple of pencils and played along with Pat! It was so cute!!

This is just a cute picture from Sunday night! Mara & Sawyer were just laughing with each other.

They are the best of friends!

Pat started his Student Teaching on Monday and he will be doing this for 10 weeks. I'm glad to say, we survived week 1. It's been a little tough not having him home at night, especially for the kids, but I know we can do it! I just hope all goes well with the remaining 9 weeks.
Here are some fun pics of this week.
Mara decided that she needed to rock her bear to sleep. Afterward she put her on the couch with her head on a pillow and another pillow on top of her like a blanket.
Oh how she loves her bear!
We were able to get this really cool headboard for Xander that was on clearance at RC Willey. It has shelves and even pull out drawers on the sides. When Pat was home on Wednesday night, we moved things around and got it all set up! It's really nice and going to be well loved.
Xander's Bed Before:
Xander's Bed After:
Xander really likes this Marble Works set that my mom has and we get it out every so often. Yesterday he made a really tall one. We even got video of how it works :)

I've been having a craving to play my old SEGA and got it out when we were moving things around on Wednesday. I didn't even try to play it until Thursday night and discovered that I was missing a cord. Luckily, I was able to call my cousins that live on my street and they had a cord that I could borrow. We were able to get it working and I'm realizing that these games I used to play can be fairly hard!! (Thanks again Dane & Cody for the cord)

This is Wonder Boy in Monster Land, it's fun and I let Xander play it. I have been playing Wonder Boy III (it actually has passwords to save progress!! Totally awesome!!!)

Mara actually let me do her hair fancy today!! Too bad it only lasted the afternoon!And here is my tired toddler at this very moment. She has been up since about 5:30 this morning. She wanted to watch Snow White on my mom's bed and sure enough, she fell asleep!! It's so great when that happens. I just hope she'll go to bed okay tonight!
And for my own memory: Wednesday night I had Enrichment and that is the only night of the week that Pat is home. He was a great husband and put the kids to bed while I was gone :) Well Thursday morning after Pat left for school, I am woken up by Mara, stark naked, standing next to my bed holding a nightgown. I ask her what happened and she just tells me "My bed is wet!!" So I go into her room and sure enough her bed is wet, because daddy forgot to put a diaper on her before bed time! But Mara was so cute and had taken off her wet nightgown and underwear and got a clean nightgown out of her drawer and that is what she had with her. Now we will always make sure she has a diaper on before going to sleep!

I Love This

Neil Patrick Harris on last weeks Saturday Night Live!

Reminder: 2 More Days Until

Tid Bits

Here are some tid bits from the past week.

On New Years when we were at Morri & Liza's, Mara found one of Addi's Tinkerbell dress ups. I just love the picture.

The past 6+ months Mara has only worn nightgowns to go to sleep. This all started because she would take her jammies (top and pants) off in the middle of the night and I would find her in only a diaper in the morning, but she wouldn't do this with nightgowns. Anyway, we got a bag of hand-me-downs that were Addi's clothes and there were these really cute jammies in them. Pat put her in the jammies the other night and she loved them!!!

I have had to put together Xander's Dinosaur Lego set a few different times and these are the results.

After about 7 weeks of potty training Mara finally finished her chart. I had actually stopped putting stickers on for awhile, because she didn't need the encouragement anymore. So the past few days we have made sure to fill it all the way up!! I am so proud of her. I always thought that when the potty training was done that we would get out the toddler bed for her. And we did!!!! She has spent 1 night in her new bed and did better then I thought she would. She only got up 2 times. Once because of Xander going to the bathroom, and the other because she thought her bed was wet. She still got up about 8:30 and was so happy to be able to get out of bed by herself. I just hope that she will do better tonight.

As many of you know, I have been collecting the Indiana Jones Adventure Heroes guys. I originally bought only the guys from Raiders and Temple of Doom. I was also able to send away for this guy!! For some reason I had decided that I didn't want to get the ones from Crystal Skull, until I found out that I probably wouldn't be able to find the ones from Last Crusade anywhere because all the Indy toys are on clearance at all the stores. So I finally decided to buy the Crystal Skull guys and was lucky enough to find them at Toys R Us!!!

Indiana Jones & Col. Dovchenko

Indiana Jones & Ugha Warrior

Mutt Williams & Irina Spalko
(Side note: I was able to find the Last Crusade guys on eBay today and bought them!!! Thanks again Mom for the money from Christmas!!! I will post pictures when I get them)

The same day I got my guys we went to IKEA and I got a few shelves for our room. Because Pat had to take over the last shelf in the bookcase and kicked out my pictures so I needed somewhere to put them. I was able to find some plain wood shelves and painted them black. It was only 8 bucks to get the 2 shelves & brackets, I already had the black paint, and then got some varnish for 5 bucks. I love being able to do fun projects for cheap. Now I need to get some new pictures for the frames. I have 3 pictures of Xander as a baby, and none of Mara. My sister Karri had given me an idea for a good way to display pins. I have glued foam on frames then pushed the pins through. So I have a picture (bottom shelf, far left) of Pat & I during the 2002 Olympics, right before we got married, and I have a bunch of Pins from the Olympics on it. It's such a great way to remember that time. There is another one of Karri, Mom, & Me when we were in Disneyland, and I have some pins on the frame from that trip. And these shelves are great for my Indy guys too!!

Btw: My toe is doing okay. The upper part of my foot is pretty green still, but I'm able to walk without the shoe (I only wear it when I'm out of the house). It's hard to keep it elevated all the time with the kids running around all day. But I've been able to finish a cross stitch and crochet some more on a blanket that has been sitting for probably a year! I will spare everyone real pictures of the foot, the x-ray will have to be enough.

I'm The Proud Owner of...

A Broken Toe!!!!

And it's my first broken bone too!

So this just happened a few hours ago! I am such a klutz and was just following Mara to the bathroom and stubbed my foot on a metal kids chair that Mara left in the hallway. I KNOW, SO STUPID!!!! Of course it hurt so badly but I still had to help her in the bathroom. When we were done, my mom helped me get some ice and lay down on the couch. I was nervous to take my sock off because of the pain, and when I did, my toe was going the wrong way!!! So that's when I started crying. So I'm laying on the couch and had my mom call her sister that is a nurse. She said that it would just need to be taped and that's all that can be done for toes. Then I call Pat and tell him what happened, and of course start to cry all over again, because I was nervous and scared that it was broken. After I calmed down, I called my doctors office, but they were closed. So my mom called hers and got the address for their new InstaCare that is really close to us. We decided to go there and called Chris (my bro-in-law) to come over and stay with the kids while we were gone. When we got to the InstaCare there wasn't anyone ahead of us. So after filling out paperwork I got into a room, then did a few x-rays. I took pictures of the x-rays with my phone. We were only at the InstaCare for about an hour, which was great not to wait too long! Now I have my toes taped and have a walking shoe, because I was having to hop on my right foot to get anywhere. I just have to wear it for awhile and go into the office in 8 weeks for a follow up x-ray!!

What a great way to start off a new year!!

New Years Eve

On New Years Eve Pat & I went to Morri & Liza's house and took Rock Band with us!! It was so much fun playing with everyone there! My nephew Carter and his friend had played before and did pretty good. We all took turns playing everything and had a great time!! We also watched 'Eagle Eye' which was better then I thought it would be.

Thanks again for having us over!

Pat & Carter

Carter, Liza, & Lana
Alex rockin' out on the drums!

Addi wanted a turn on the drums so Pat helped her out.

A great Rock Band pose!!! (Morri & Pat)

Too bad the boys got the bunny ears in there.

This is the best!! JR & Pat were having a great time being Rock Stars!!

Liza loved the guitar!

(This was a natural pose, unlike the pictures of the boys!)
Lana & Me

My husband being awesome on the guitar!

I just can't believe that 2008 is already gone! It's been a great year and I know that 2009 will be even better!! It's going to be a really busy time for us the next few months, with Pat student teaching, but I know it will be well worth it!! Here are a few things that will be going on for us: Pat will be graduating in April and hopefully have a job lined up soon after. And with that being said, we are hoping to be able to buy a house this year too! Xander will also be starting Kindergarten in the fall, I can't believe that he is getting that big!! And once again I'm planning to lose some weight (I said this last year too, but didn't follow through). So we'll see how it all goes :)

I know that 2009 will be a great year!!!

Friends

(Stefanie, Kristen, Annika w/ Keilah, Me w/ Mara, Courtney, & Erin)

(Xander took the picture!)

On Monday I was able to have a bunch of friends from high school over. We were able to hang out for a few hours and catch up. It was especially great because Kristen lives in Kentucky and Annika lives in Texas and they were both here visiting for the holidays!! We were all in choir together and have been friends ever since :) I love that I have friends that have stuck by me for over 10 years! These girls are wonderful and I am thankful to call them my friends.

Video Clips From Christmas

This is for Jen! Here is Grandma opening her book :)

The Ramey Family Tradition!

I love that Sawyer didn't want to be under the paper, but she is laughing and loving it from the sidelines!!

Thanks Lisa for taking the video and letting me steal it :)