Every single night, the same arrangment
I go out and fight the fight
Still I always feel this strange estrangement,
Nothing here is real, nothing here is right.
I've been making shows of trading blows
Just hoping no one knows
That I've been going through the motions,
Walking through the part,
Nothing seems to penetrate my - Heart.
I was always brave and kind of righteous,
Now I find I'm wavering.
Crawl out of your grave, you find this fight
Just doesn't mean a thing
(She ain't got that swing.)
Thanks for noticing
(She does pretty well with fiends from Hell
But lately we can tell
That she's just going through the motions
Faking it somehow.)
(She's not even half the girl she... owww!)
Will I stay this way forever?
Sleepwalk through my life's endeavor?
(How can I repay -) Whatever!
I don't want to be
Going through the motions,
Losing all my drive.
I can't even see
If this is really me
And I just want to be -
Alive!
This is how I have been feeling lately. I'm hoping it will end soon. I just love the words of Joss Whedon and really connect with them.
4 comments:
Hey Breanne, I love what you have done with your blog.
Breanne - it's January, I swear it. I think that after the holidays its kind of let down time and then the weather doesn't help much. I am trying to get exercising because I think it really makes a difference in how we feel. So come to the rec center and ride a bike with me - it's quite a work out if you really push yourself. You just need to get out - so you aren't cooped up too much! Hang in there!
Hey Breanne your family is so cute and your daughter is beautiful!!
This time of year and having a husband gone a lot is hard. It will be over soon!
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